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Treasures

its funny , its amusing, its confusing, and frustrating!. no matter how many times a man tries, no matter how much effort a man put into it , it would not matter for once the “master”  “the treasure” no “the world” he’s living in has spoken its already over , its fate is already sealed. once the countdown to doom has started only fate can make it stop.

the world that signifies a man’s pride, a treasure beyond compare is a woman whom his heart is shared.  her simple antics and fragility brings out her true beauty.

poetry aside, it is truly illogically amazing, how things happen so fast in just a span of a month, i could not even comprehend the speed of how things ended as it is, no matter how much i analyze things, imagine , formulate and even layout a plan of everything, it will be over once fate intervenes. little do these treasures know how much men put effort to save this little world he shared his heart with. even though its already clear that its the end.

and when everything is gone nothing left but to do the right thing.

accept things as it is, even if only an ounce of self esteem is left . to let this treasure go and let the waves take it wherever it may go. the right thing to do is not to ask why  , or how , nor ask when and who has this treasure, as this is the right thing to do, for reason unknown , for reasons only a few can understand, and for reasons of fate.

to forgive and to hope , is all that’s left.

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a letter’s soul

the night is cold, the room is filled with pieces of papers scattered all over the table and the floor. looking out the window, the moon shines ever so brilliant, as clouds pass by its gleaming beauty. at the table, scribbles of countless phrases, words, and thoughts are marked on paper, but none of these doesn’t fit to describe the gravity of emotion the writer wants to convey, always contemplating deeply and considering every word and consequences it may bring. and alas the time has come to put it into writing .

” i don’t really know how to start or how i can describe it to you personally. when we are together my mind is at a constant panic at the same time i am thinking of ways to charm you, sometimes i could not fully understand what i’m trying to say or do, as i am completely in a bliss when I’m with you. these memories of us together keep on flashing in my mind, those words of yours still lingering and clear when you said we can no longer be together, and in truth a part of me could still not accept the fact that you have chosen someone else. i tried bracing myself from pain and shock, but still my emotions was caught unprepared and all i could do was just display a facade to hide. i have always feared that someday this happiness would end, and my fear grew even more whenever i think that i’m losing you to someone else. and when you have finally decided, feelings came pouring down as my heart bleeds from its wound, i know after this things would never be the same. i keep on wishing that i should have prevented it from happening, i keep asking myself “why did i let this happen”, it frustrates me to know how powerless i am , if only i was just Selfish enough and demanded we’d be together then Maybe!, Just Maybe we could be together as a couple.

i fully understand the circumstances we are in, that i am just temporary, and all of the risk it involves, that i don’t have any right to be jealous or demand time and attention, sometimes i do not know what am I to you, if im a lover or a friend. at times i’d be jealous when your with someone else, but i try to control all the feelings of anxiety and put my trust in you, sometimes i find myself wishing for you to “please be mine”, yet i dont want to influence nor interfere with your decision, that i wanted you to be fair and decide your own choice.

those 62 days that i have spent with you since Autumn of 22, was the happiest days that i have ever had, and until now i can still hear your voice whispering, your laughs and cries , the walks that we took together, your calls , your hugs and your kisses and truthfully until now i crave for your attention, your time, your love and your affection. my emotions may no longer matter by the time you have read this, and as i confess this to you, i wanted to let you know that i do cherish and love you, even if things have changed. i do not expect of anything in return, you have my deepest gratitude for being a part of this wonderful tale you have shared with me that i will never forget.”

with shivering hands the writer puts down his pen, re-reading for errors and after a few dozen crumpled pieces of paper, the writer said ” Finally !”. his pen rest along with the scattered pieces, through different colors and hue’s  he reached for an envelop layered with purple linings and engraved letters in gold  saying ” to my fallen angel” ,  as he sealed his thoughts through this fragile container, his hopes of delivering this treasure, a mere memory that one day  it would reach its recipients soul.

panliligaw? —–

minsan-talaga pag-wala ka nang magawa, titingin ka lang sa isang sulok at magiisip ng kung anong pwede ipost. sa sobrang adik mo na sa social networking sites kahit ano, basta lang makapagupdate at mapansin ka lang ng crush mo, ibang klase na talaga ang ligawan ngayon.

kung noon pa simpleng “Hi” lang dahil wala ka lang ibang masabi o di kaya pa-simpleng “love letter” ang ipinapadala sa kaibigan na kunwari ” bridge ” , at sila pa ang nagkatuloyan, o ang pa “text text ” diyan sa tabi-tabi hangang sa mapudpud ang daliri. ngayon pa “tweet” nalang o kaya naman “Status Update”, salamat sa internet ,

kung noon kailangan mo pang bumunot ng lakas ng loob para sa isang “Hi” , at ipadala ang lahat ng sulat sa kartero o ang maubusan ka ng load at kuko sa kakatext , ngayon mas naging simple, kailangan mo lang ng internet at keyboard. problema nga lang kung wala ka namang computer o internet ehh wala rin, mag internet cafe ka na lang.

kahit umunlad na teknolohiya iba na din ang panliligaw kung noon simpleng simple lang humirit ng mga kataga gaya ng “hahamakin ang lahat masunod ka lamang “- ngayon kailangan mo nang bumunot ng isang magandang Pick – up line sa kailaliman ng utak mo para lang hindi ka mabara at sabihan ng “Estoryahee”. mga babae naman talaga Oo nagbago na din , kahit simpleng pambobola hindi gagana. kaya tayong mga lalake gumawa pa kayo ng bagong mga paraan para ma-iba naman , at wag na tayo maki-uso sa radyo.

parang – awa nyo na ang hirap na kaya manligaw kahit bago na ang teknolohiya –

Miga

Movie Date?!!!!!!….

Sabado mag-aalas kwatro na ng hapon, kakapalabas pa lang ng KNIGHT and DAY , Toy Story 3 at 3rd installement ng twilight saga, maraming tao ang nakapila para lang makakuha ng ticket na papaubos na sa Cinema Stand sa mall, sa gitna nakadisplay na boards at advertisement sa mga susunod pang palabas, doon ay naghihintay ako, suot ko lang noon ay jacket na blue brown na shirt at ang paborito kong maong, magulo pa ang buhok ko noon sa kaka-kamot sa ulo dahil galing pa ako sa isang meeting, tinignan ko ang cellphone sabi sa isang message” malapit na ako, saan ka”, agad akong nagreply “ hanapin mo lang ang tanga na nakatayo malapit sa iron man poster sa may ticket booth”, ilang saglit lang nakita ko siya , nakasuot ng putting blouse at shorts ang kanyang Blond dyed na buhok ang kanyang ngiti at ang kanyang matulis na boses sabay sabi ng pangalan ko, habang papalapit siya sinalubong ko siya ng isang malaking ngiti sabay sana ng isang malaking yakap pero di ko na tinuloy in0akbayan ko nalang, habang naglalakad kami para kumaha ng ticket, tinanong niya ako, “ kanina kapa ba dito? Sorry na late ako “ , “ ok lang yun, bago lang din ako dumating “ pasinungaling na sagot ko kahit na malapit nang bumigay mga ugat ko sa paa sa kakatayo ng halos kalahating oras, pero kahit na ganun Worth it naman.

tinignan namin ang magkabilaang pila sabi ko “ ikaw anu gusto mo panoorin?” kahit na alam ko na hindi siya mahilig sa sine at kahit na alam ko ang ang isasagot niya, “kahit anu jan ok lang basta may pagkain” sagot niya., napagusapan naming panoorin ay ang twilight sana pero nang makita naming halos puno na ito ay lumipat nlng kami, knight and day din sana sa VIP Lounge pero puno din ito kaya nag toy story 3 nalang kami. Bago kami pumasok bumili muna kami ng 2 footlong na hotdogs, at ice tea, muntikan ko nang naiwala ang ticket buti nlng nasa bulsa lang pala, madilim pagpasok namin sa sine pero hindi pa nagsimula ang opening Ads at trailer, nahirapan pang magadjust ng ang mata ko sa dilim at muntikan na akong madapa sa hagdan buti nalang lumiwanag katapos lang pala ng palabas at pa-alis na din ang ibang manonood, nag hanap kami ng pwesto sa likuran ng projector ikatlong hilera ng mga upuan mula sa taas, “ kelan ka last nanood ng sine “ tanong ko, “nung december ata, di ko na ma-alala”sagot niya, “ahh,” sabi ko sabay ngiti “anung palabas nun? At sino kasama mo ?” tanong ko ulit sa kanya “ avatar “, nagtaka ako bakit hindi niya sinagot ang isa pang tanong tinanong ko ulit “sino kasama mo noon ?” , “basta wala ka na dun” sa hindi maipaliwanag na dahilan naramdaman ko ng parang may gusto siyang kalimutan, o para bang may bumabagabag sa kanya , hindi lang dahil sa ayaw niya itong pagusapan kundi may isa pang bagay na mas malalim pa na ayaw niyang ipakita.

nakwento niya dati na hindi siya mahilig manood ng sine dahil boring daw ito, kahit na ganon pumayag parin siya sa paanyaya kong magsine, wow napakaswerte ko naman, pero sa kabila nito di ko maiwasan na may iba pa siyang dahilan na tila may iba pang naglalaro sa isip niya. nagkwentuhan kami habang hindi pa nagsisimula ang palabas. Suot niya ang kanyang salamin, sabi ko sa sarili ko ang cute niya, napangiti ako sa kanya sabay sabing “ang cute mo “ at sinagot naman niya ito ng isa pang ngiti, pakiramdam ko para akong isang kamatis na pula na tila malulusaw sa ngiti niya.

Kahit na nagsimula na ang palabas patuloy parin kami sa pagkekwentuhan, dito ko nalaman ang iba pang mga kakatuwang mga bagay tungkol sa kanya pero karamihan nito puro pagkain at pano lutuin ang alin, sa lahat ng nakilala kong babae siya lang ang alam kong mahilig kumain n g kumain gaya ko. At iba pang detalye na hindi ko pwedeng sabihin at malamang nakalimutan ko na dahil natawa ako sa part na lumabas si barbie at ken sa isang scene ng palabas.

Ilang minuto ang nagdaan naramdaman ko na ang lamig ng sinehan, alam kong mas giniginaw siya kesa sa akin, nang tatanungin ko na sana naunahan niya sa pagsabi “ ang lamig na “ sabay ng panginginig at lamig ng kanyang mga kamay, “ yan kasi hindi ka nagdala ng jacket “ sabay alok ng jacket ko”ayan gamitin mo muna para di ka ginawin” habang nilalagay ko sa balikat niya, naramdaman kong biglang nag backflip ang isang parte ng dibdib ko at muntikan nang lumipad ang atay ko sa cheezy na line, sa kabilang dulo ng utak ko may nagsasabing ‘oi chansing! pagkakataon mo na!’. Na siyang sinunod ko naman, nag kick in agad ang instinct na umakbay “halika dito, para di ka masyadong ginawin” sabi ko sabay akap sa kanya, akala ko pipigilan na niya ako dito pero hinayaan niya nalng ako na akapin siya, hindi na ako napagconcentrate sa palabas para bang kami lang dalawa ang nilalang sa mundo, ang gaan sa pakiramdam iba talaga ang may inaalagaan, na miss ko bigla ang mga panahon at sandali na matagal ko nang hindi na naranasan mag-isa. Kung hindi lang sa armrest na nakaharang siguro ang ganda na na position namin kaya lang naramdaman ko na sumasakit ang tagiliran ko at parang ilang sandali nalang mamamatay na ito dahil sa lack of blood circulation, pero okay lang kung sa kasabihan pa “Sacrifice”.

Pagkatapos ng palabas,hindi na kami namasyal at dali-dali kaming umalis ng mall at sumakay ng Jeep sa may quirino papuntang Terminal, nagmamadali na siyang umuwi dahil naghihintay na sa kanya ang kanyang pamilya, at dahil gabi narin minabuti ko nang ihatid siya kahit sa terminal man lang, pagkadating namin, naghintay muna kami sandali at naghanap ng papaalis na sasakyan, “ingat pauwi ha.. text mo ako pag dating mo ng bahay, kiss ko” sabi kong pabiro sabay wave “ opo , I tetxt kita see you at school nalang” sagot niya sabay halik. Para akong kandilang nalusaw bigla, di ko inasahan na hahalikan niya talaga ako. At ganun nalang natapos ang storya…

di ko man lang nasabing mahal ko siya …..

Rabbit sa Valentines

Isang araw nanaman ang inubos ko sa kakalakwatsa, halos yata buong syudad nasuyud ko sa kakahanap ng pwedeng bilhin sa lahat ng mall at tindahan problema nga lang wala akong pera kung meron man hindi ito pang shopping, nagawa ko lang maghapon ay mag window shopping yung tipong papasok sa isang stall titingin tingin (at magpa cute sa saleslady) ng mga binibentang gadget cellphones, minsan naman nakiki usisa kung ano ang uso at bago sa PSP , OnLine games anong magandang palabas sa sine, sa paglalakad ko napansin kong ang tema ng mall ngayon ay pula, may background music pang mga gong na pang Chinese temple, ang tagal na digest sa utak ko na Lunar or Chinese new year na pala dahil sa mga cute na tsixnoy(tsinong chix na pinoy) na nakasuot ng pula ang unang sumagi sa isip ko “ single kaya sila ngayong valentines >:-) “ , parang bumaha ng kamatis sa mall sa rami ng pulang banners tshirts , mga display na puso, sabi nila year of the rabbit daw ngayon maswerte sa buhay at lovelife, ang gandang combination nun year of the rabbit(isipin mo na lang playboy magazine) at Valentines(araw ng mga milagro), kung pagsamahin natin ang ocasyon sa buwan ng pebrero malamang may lalabas na ganitong equation.
February+ Chinese new year of the Rabbit+Valentines = Overpopulation by year 2012
At baka 9 months after February 14 countdown na. sa kabilang banda patuloy parin ang paglilibot sa mall, sumasakit na halos ang mga binti ko sa sobrang bored maglakad, pero bawi naman sa “magagandang tanawin” kahit papaano may inspiration bakit ako naglilibot sa buong mall.

Swerte?

Minsan talagang maswerte ka lang talaga, di mo tuloy lubos maisip kung guni guni lang ito o katotohanan na mapasagot mo ng Oo sa isang Date ang babaeng gusto mo. Kung minsan din naman minamalas ka dahil sa ibat ibang dahilan na halatang ayaw ng babae sa iyo. Pero kung sa totoong buhay lang ang hirap para sa isang lalake na magkaroon ng lakas ng loob para lumapit at sabihing “pwede ba kitang maanyaya lumabas?” ,na hindi namumutla, nanginginig sa takot, nabubulol at pinagpapawisan… Isa kang malaking sinungaling pag sinabi mong hindi ka dumaan nito. Kahit sino walang takas sa ganitong klaseng scenario, at kahit kanino pwede itong mangyari.

“Excuse me uhhm …uhhmm miss uhhmm uhhmmm you know uhhm uhmm…. I invite you outside… uhhmm uhhmmm… will you come to me? ….”, sambit nang isang lalake na gustong magyaya ng date, kahit na lagpas baba na ang kanyang nosebleed, ito ang karaniwan ginagawa ng karamihan para magpa impress, kunwari marunong sila mag engles hindi naman kaya magsalita ng maayos. Sa pag aakala na mag madadagdagan ang kanilang chansa na mapasagot ng Oo ang babaeng gusto nila, ito ay isang malaking pag-kakamali, pagkat hindi nadadaan sa kung gaano ka magaling magsalita o kung may alam kang ibang lenguahe, kundi nasa paraan ng pagsasalita at sa sinseridad ng mga binitawan mong salita.

Lahat naman tayo ay may pagkakataon, nasa sa iyo na kung kukunin mo ang pagkakataon na iyon dahil mahirap umasa sa panahon, at ang tanging nakakapagtagumpay dito ay ang mga taong hindi takot mabigo at handang matuto.

What is the Philippines Today?

what is the philippines today?. we are proud to be a filipino, proud of our culture ,of our talents and skills, proud of our democracy, we have so many services to offer the world in terms of man power, intellect and skills however with all these talents, have we ever stopped and think what has happened to our country? of what has it become? of what our fore fathers fought to attain? what have we been doing for these past few years?, all the rallies, the EDSA Gathering from marcos regime to DOS and TRES? did we really made a change, aside from overthrowing our leaders? have we learned from our long history of tyranny and opression? have we ever considered these thought it through and tried to realized the answers? we have been colonized a few times and have almost stripped us of our own identity as a nation yet our fore fathers have fought to save our traditions to defend our lands from conquerors, yet now we descriminate our own past and origins that a few claims to be halfbloods even if they’re not and only a few accepts the fact that they have a native blood running through thier veins and most neglect to recognize their origins.

today we offer a variety of services to other countries yet we neglect to offer service to our own people. we can see schools being built yet it can only accomodate a few and only a handful of teachers. we have little health benefits and only a few doctors and clinics, we produce fresh graduates yet almost 70% of all graduates cant land a job if they do it will mean scrubbing somebody elses toilet as a domestic helper”(as one blog would say). we concentrated more on what is outside the country of what oppurtunities it gives us instead of our own country, that is drowning in its own debt. we say that we are proud of our nationality yet we look for oppurtunities abroad and belittle what our country can give us. we are proud of our talents and intelect yet we can’t even cleverly end a hostage drama without blodshed or answer a simple question of “what is the biggest mistake you’ve done?”. we say we have skills yet we have a knack of being late for work.

there are many who want to lead, to make a change even our fore fathers fought and died to attain their ideal peace make the philippines a country for filipino’s not just an extension colony of another country,they fought to make a difference, yet we the people neglect to follow and embody thier ideals and just pull each others legs down, whats worse is that when everything gets Bad we always point our fingers to the leaders like children trying to throw blame when the fault really lies with the people, people who fail to follow simple Laws, people who only cares about personal gain, people who turns a blind eye to justice, because it is the people who embodies a Nation not the leader.

we are proud of our democracy but what are we doing to maintain it? when we are always influenced by popularity, by bribe of money to keep our silence. what to we do of our freedom? is it just hanging out somewhere drink coffee, enjoy a game of basketball and play online games elsewhere, when the nation is on a crisis or have been hit with a major calamity and needs volounteers. do we just sit idly and wait for others to get into action? we need to wake up and make a move for our nation is sick and we need to heal it, its sickness is not the government nor the leaders and officials who governs it but the people itself. there are people who are trying to help our nation Stand up the people who try to make a change to make the country better but there are only a few of them , and those many people who weighs the nation down.

we have a lot to boast in terms of our natural resources our well known hospitality, exotic beauties and our diverse culture however if we the people keep on looking outside our own borders our country will not prosper, and all the hard work of the people who built this nation will all end to nothing. all the countries sorrounding us in Asia have already overtaken us from a thirdworld country to a level thats almost the same as the countries on the west and still rising while we remain the same.

so what has the philippines become today? is the filipino still worth dying for as ninoy addressed before he got shot?, when our own people are deserting the same nation who nurtured them? can we still be proud of our culture when we adore foriegn import and trades instead of our own goods? can we still be proud of our talents and skills when our Government and its people doesnt even recognize or commend these talents? can we still say we are competent after the blodshed of a hostage drama? can we still Correct our Biggest Mistake?. the Answer lies with its people.